On Being Seen

A Galaxy of Thoughts - Part 1

I haven't written a post in 2 months. And yet in the last 30 days, I've gained 70 subscribers. Part of it is based on my friend Josh Walker absolutely blowing up (for good reason) and having the generosity to recommend me. Part of it is collective emergence - the signal of sovereignty growing stronger.

But, I’m used to shouting into the void online.

I spent years on Twitter trying to build a following and failing. From this, I internalized the belief that no one cares what I have to say, unless I try to be someone else. I ping ponged between self expression and trying to fit myself into a niche. If you’ve read the rest of my writing, you know that’s a fool’s errand.

My first post here - about the New Earth - wasn't that. It was something that I had to express, otherwise I was going to burn up. A few people in my spiritual circle cheered me on, but certainly not a growing movement.

So, now that people are opting into my thought stream, I'm experiencing a different kind of first world problem - growing pressure to perform, ratcheting up every time another subscriber notification hits the inbox.

Here’s a window into my stream of consciousness -

When more are looking, am I ready to stand in my perspective? Will I pretend I'm just a normal person, trying to fit myself into a "niche" again? Will I try to “monetize” this somehow? Or is this a fluke? Am I doomed to fail? Do I hate myself and I’ll just sabotage it (again)?

Like Andor says “Make it worth it” Don’t waste these people’s time. Don’t give them AI slop. Don’t lose what you’re just beginning.

But maybe if I express those things, they can be the armor against the demon of perfectionism. So, as terrifying it is, I’m choosing now to take the steps to be seen.

This is my radical declaration of creative sovereignty. I promise to express myself as authentically as possible, and step into the knowing even more, that my perspective has immense value, and that the outcome of expressing myself doesn’t matter.

What matters is the energy I bring to this. And what I’m bringing is raw embodiment of my galaxy brain, to share and activate cocreators of a New Earth, a post-scarcity paradigm, a world of sacred reciprocity - and to help guide us across the bridge from the old reality to the new.

So thank you for joining me, for subscribing to be on this wild journey, and for being you.

This post was originally much longer, but I decided to split it into chunks. Here’s what’s upcoming in future articles:

• Astrology as a tool to navigate chaos

• AI as the fastest feedback loop for consciousness I’ve ever seen.

• Substack and the growing mycelial network of people creating a parallel reality

• What “the resistance” really is

• The Divide - a sci-fi story about future America and our answer to the enshittification of storytelling (this one is vulnerable as hell)

• Atlantis as the myth we need

• So, apparently I can channel, and channeling is actually a thing?

• Reflections on my New Earth piece (from 2 years ago!) and an embodied action plan fused with spirit

If any of that sounds like your jam, let me know. I look forward to connecting with you. I look less forward to refreshing my Substack obsessively to look for social validation. (But I’m going to do it anyway)